To date, this was the most difficult post for me. Within the last three years, I just got to the point where I was comfortable enough to even talk about the fact that I’d been battling lupus for the last 15 or so years. This is the first time that I’m publicly revealing that I suffered with depression, suicide attempts, emotional eating, and alcohol abuse. My early 20s were a mess, and sometimes it showed. I didn’t know if I was coming or going half the time.
Living with Lupus was a hard battle to fight, but the internal battle I faced everyday was even harder. The physical pain I felt had me wanting to give up on life all together. There was always a small still voice inside of me that begged me not to give up. So I fought as hard as i could. With much prayer, self-love, and meditation, I eventually got to the point where I loved me again. In the video below, I share in more detail how I felt back then and the steps I took to get over it all.
I made some very difficult yet long last changes in my life. I created a daily routine that shifted me to the place I am today. I’ve grown physically, mentally, and spiritually over these last 5 years. Each day is still a learning process for me. I’m still learning about me and what I love. Throughout this journey I’ve found a few things that have helped me along this path. A few books that I absolutely love are
Power of Positive thinking
As a man thinketh
Think and grow rich
By any greens necessary
These are just a few of the books that have helped me to grow stronger, along with spiritual counseling, and a strong support system. No one can do this alone, be sure to surround yourself with people you trust, and people who will speak light into your dark situation.
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