Since being on this holistic journey, I’ve learned so much about who I am as a person and what works for me. Im still a work in progress but I find it fulfilling to go through the process of really learning who I am. During this 5 year journey, not only have I grown stronger in my physical health but also mentally and spiritually.
Meditation (and much pray) played a big part of the transformation of my life. I realized that I couldn’t fully heal from my physical pains if I didn’t first heal from the mental ones that haunted me on a daily basis. When I first started meditation about 3 years ago, it was very hard. I didn’t know what I was doing, and I just felt crazy laying on the floor quiet and still. The process wasn’t working for me because my mind was racing and getting the absolute best of me. Not only did I say the process was stupid and worthless but I thought it as well. I knew something had to change though, I couldn’t continue on living sick, tired, and broken.
So I decided to seek help on how to properly meditate. The easiest and least expensive things was to google and watch youtube videos. It worked for a while but I’m a hands on type and really needed guidance. I then sought the help of a yoga instructor from college. When I approached her, she said she remembered me taking her class and even then she could sense there was something great about me (SN: that goes to show that the right people see greatness in you even when you’re broken and hopeless). I told her what I needed help with and she with no hesitation guided me through the process. I went to her for about 8 months until she moved out of town. Going through that brought up so many emotions that for so many years were buried inside. Once that part of me was healed, everything else just fell right into place. The symptom from having lupus were little to none existent, my skin was clearing up, and my surroundings became easier to handle.
Today I meditate daily for about 30 minutes, sometimes an hour. During that time I speak greatness over my life and the lives of those I love. I speak about the intentions I have for my future along with the plans and dreams I have. I then lay completely still and quiet on the floor allowing God to take over. Allowing more visions to flow and the steps and actions I need to take in order to get those things done. When I’m not doing that I love to ride my bike, or calmly walk while listening to nature and all its beauty.
I’m not perfect, I still have bad days and sometimes my mind gets the best of me. Im still learning and being a student. The difference now is I know how to center myself and calm down those thoughts that use to take over me. I know now that whatever I focus on, will magnify, grow, and become greater than I’ve ever imagined. That’s why I only think, speak, and listen to positivity to insure my life is always in Divine Order. 🙂